malcolm and i both had things planned today. i was to attend a meeting and he was going to finish the network wiring at our new house. shortly before the meeting ended, i received a call from my neighbor. i knew something was wrong before i even answered the phone. 'joanie, your cat is dead in the road' i wish she has been more gentle with me but what difference would it have made? the cat is still dead. then came other calls. my husband, my daughter. i left the meeting early. ***** jasmine was ready to leave for federation. she was to play a difficult piece this year for the judges and this happened an hour before show time. no adult was home so she was the one who had to deal with it. the smaller kids were inside. our neighbor, came to help but the emotional trauma had already occurred. i was racing home but i couldn't shelter her from the pain of losing something you love. she wanted to shut down. i wanted to say something... ***** the death of our